Here's the Front entrance to the college The few days before the conference, I'll have to admit, I had something really stupid but really annoying at the same time on my mind. It just wouldn't go away properly. Sorry, even my real close (best) friends won't know about this, and though it is gone for now, I do not think I'll share it just yet. But I will eventually, cause its just so stupid. And with this little 'needle prick' I left for the conference with pretty much no expectations, as if I was leaving my room for a few hours.
Either I had too much expectations for this conference or none at all due to the thing mentioned earlier, because when I first got there I was just not feeling excited too much what so ever. The scenery was way too plain as well for me being in a foreign country. Way too many bushes in the wrong areas, blocking views of the distant horizon, and such and such. To cut things really short, I went to it with an icy cold heart.
It's probably because I have had my fair share of camps and conferences as most of you guys should know. But as a christian, I felt like these things are temporary though they should not be, why we go to these things, why we even have them at all, at that time, I couldn't see their purpose. But I always tried to enjoy the moments, as bad as any would be, so I did put a plastic smile and perhaps false enthusiasm.
Either I had too much expectations for this conference or none at all due to the thing mentioned earlier, because when I first got there I was just not feeling excited too much what so ever. The scenery was way too plain as well for me being in a foreign country. Way too many bushes in the wrong areas, blocking views of the distant horizon, and such and such. To cut things really short, I went to it with an icy cold heart.
It's probably because I have had my fair share of camps and conferences as most of you guys should know. But as a christian, I felt like these things are temporary though they should not be, why we go to these things, why we even have them at all, at that time, I couldn't see their purpose. But I always tried to enjoy the moments, as bad as any would be, so I did put a plastic smile and perhaps false enthusiasm.
Living a Legacy: Our theme Well, right now I'm just recalling back the moments so I am not very certain, but though I did feel discouraged, I didn't completely not even bother to seek God. In the first session, they asked us to write down the things that are affecting our body, mind and heart on our little booklet thing we get when we register. Usually I won't even bother to write them down but I thought: 'Hey, what the heck right?'. Thing was, I didn't bring that little booklet or even a trace of paper on me. So guess what? I wrote them on my hand. Haha. Yes not very relevant but hey It somehow meant something to me.
Living a Legacy. Thats the theme. When Legacy is mentioned some people would think that we have to either be dead or something. I didn't think much of it at first but I now finally understood what it means; we are to live Jesus' legacy. He's not dead but he left his work to us and we should show the world why he had to die for us. I won't get into too much detail here but if you do have any questions, I IMPLORE YOU to actually just ask me? I won't eat you :D
Well, back to my personal experience. The beds there were way cool, I slept on top of a desk and wardrobe! The bed is just designed that way. Ahaha. The only thing is that the place was a maze! We had to walk up 2 flights of stairs, then the bathroom and then there are our dorms located. Usually the beds come before the bath but I don't know, they said it was some safety design for the building. This place really reminded me of harry potter's school thingy. Mazed, gloomy and Painted portraits all over. The dining hall is close to that of Hogwarts too if not smaller and lacks those floating candles obviously.
And during our stay there, it actually snowed! It is suppose to be spring now and it snowed alot more than winter! The snow never stayed though. A real shame. Anyway, the 1st two days for me were just a little dry. It wasn't the programmes' fault really. As I said my heart was icy, cold and hard. But gradually, I felt God was speaking to me somehow, basically I was there to seek him and nothing else. I always enjoyed worships and saw it as an oppurtunity to talk to god in my own way, every word I listen to and sing, I'll always direct it to God. That's what I always try to achieve in worship sessions.
In this conference, I can possibly say that I heard God somehow clearer than before. I always had problems praying, but I believe I have a new found understanding in this area. God really does answer prayers and most of the time, we get too impatient or we actually just miss it somehow. And prayer is no big deal for those who have yet to give it a try. Its just talking to God as if you were talking to someone next to you. Even if you never believed in him yet,I believe he will answer in his time.
Living a Legacy. Thats the theme. When Legacy is mentioned some people would think that we have to either be dead or something. I didn't think much of it at first but I now finally understood what it means; we are to live Jesus' legacy. He's not dead but he left his work to us and we should show the world why he had to die for us. I won't get into too much detail here but if you do have any questions, I IMPLORE YOU to actually just ask me? I won't eat you :D
Well, back to my personal experience. The beds there were way cool, I slept on top of a desk and wardrobe! The bed is just designed that way. Ahaha. The only thing is that the place was a maze! We had to walk up 2 flights of stairs, then the bathroom and then there are our dorms located. Usually the beds come before the bath but I don't know, they said it was some safety design for the building. This place really reminded me of harry potter's school thingy. Mazed, gloomy and Painted portraits all over. The dining hall is close to that of Hogwarts too if not smaller and lacks those floating candles obviously.
And during our stay there, it actually snowed! It is suppose to be spring now and it snowed alot more than winter! The snow never stayed though. A real shame. Anyway, the 1st two days for me were just a little dry. It wasn't the programmes' fault really. As I said my heart was icy, cold and hard. But gradually, I felt God was speaking to me somehow, basically I was there to seek him and nothing else. I always enjoyed worships and saw it as an oppurtunity to talk to god in my own way, every word I listen to and sing, I'll always direct it to God. That's what I always try to achieve in worship sessions.
In this conference, I can possibly say that I heard God somehow clearer than before. I always had problems praying, but I believe I have a new found understanding in this area. God really does answer prayers and most of the time, we get too impatient or we actually just miss it somehow. And prayer is no big deal for those who have yet to give it a try. Its just talking to God as if you were talking to someone next to you. Even if you never believed in him yet,I believe he will answer in his time.
The Crazy people from Leicester In the picture above are some crazy people from Leicester, all from different parts of the world, mostly weird people but all great. Their really a big encouragement, The one in white jacket, Abi, has always cooked for us every friday and always looked so tired but she still does it anyway. The guy which seems to be the tallest, Vincent, is an excellent musician. And there's me, smart, suave, charming and so good looking. AHAHAHA, just kidding. You all know my vain outbursts and love me for it.
Gerald (baby face) Sze, you'll never guess how old he is
Hui Juan, Kirsty and Gigi, the middle ones quite nuts XD
Well, I just kind of ran out of stuff to say about the end of the conference but in the end it was amazing! (as i said earlier). I did not leave with empty hands, perhaps it's because I always had this in mind, as the song goes: 'Jesus, please don't pass me by'. With this in mind as well now, I pray that God won't pass any of you by as well, whoever you are. God doesn't just want to bless you, he wants to be with you always, as your father who loves.
Whoever reads this, you can respond in anyway you like. I always liked some comments, bad or good. Just that the bad ones might get some rants from me..AHAHAHA...but if its productive thank you. Till next time blog reading people. God Bless.
Whoever reads this, you can respond in anyway you like. I always liked some comments, bad or good. Just that the bad ones might get some rants from me..AHAHAHA...but if its productive thank you. Till next time blog reading people. God Bless.
1 comment:
im glad you gained alot from camp! but rmbr this lar, camp is not a place to build the fire and let it die after camp...maintain this attitude throughout...camp is just a reminder. will tell u more in person lar...cant really type and talk at one time :)
really glad u found yourself in some terms! abt that thing...talk to me whenever your ready :)
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